Sunday, November 13, 2005

Beautiful

I managed to engage husband in some sex play, namely by offering to gingerly suck his cock. Of course it remains too soon to play but... after having no problems from Martin I figured I might as well play with Husband, too. Things are a little sore now... I may have delayed the healing a bit... but it was well worth it.

I've been grabbing husband and kissing him whenever possible. Trying to find ways to touch him. Although I know he'll soon get annoyed and start pulling away... I'll take it where I can get it.

I looked in the mirror this evening. My period is over, I just had some incredible sex (and bonding) with someone I've wanted for a long time, I colored my hair (after arguing with myself which color to use), lost somewhere around 10 lbs in the last week (partially water weight, partially from having to only eat when I'm super hungry.. and then only enough to sate because it hurt to eat). I feel beautiful. My lips are red, my skin is clear, my eyes bright.

It's not often I feel beautiful, like someone anyone should look at twice. But today, I do.

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