Could it be...

Sam came into the store yesterday. So beautiful. He didn't stay too long... but a few minutes.

Today he came in and bought his usual couple of items. As soon as I saw him coming I darted as far from the entrance to the store as I possibly could. Because there he was in his workout clothes (a little more naked than I'm used to seeing him, you know) and I knew I was going to have to get myself together before I could face him. Anyone watching me would have thought I was insane... luckily no one watched.

So I got myself together and greeted him as I always do. I was working kind of hard because I was behind a little on things I needed to get done so I didn't hang around to see if he wanted to talk. However, another customer came up (another regular) and as I chatted with him Sam stood around waiting for me to finish my conversation. After that guy left he and I talked about some movies and the like. I ended up asking him if he's religious and he said "Not really" which ended up being more of a "kinda" which I took as a "yes." Blech. Anyway, we were talking about Narnia so I had to ask.

As we were talking he mentioned that he'd just finished working out. At the gym across base. It didn't occur to me at the time but now I can't help but wonder about the fact that he came to MY store today. Because you see there's the other store (that I dislike) which is located on the way from that gym to one of the main exits from post, the one I assume he lives past. Not to mention that the store I am in is past a special gate which isn't on the way to anything, really. So... I kind of take this to mean... he... might... maybe... have come to see me. Me. Not to buy something, really. But to see ME. And I'm trying REALLY REALLY hard not to read as much into it as I crave. I'm trying.

It's not working very well. Yes, he did already refuse me but... god damn it. I'm ever hopeful because he's just so fucking cute!

Oh, he was wearing a sleevless type shirt today and I realized that his body might not be as thin as I thought it was. And I found him sexier because of it. Because I adore the fact that he's not perfection... which in a way IS perfection....

Want. SO BAD....