You can't go back

Of course I'm a mess. There's been a lot of stress in my life. So it's no surprise that I'm romanticizing and in love with DB.

It's been two weeks since I last saw him. I went and saw him again tonight. It wasn't quite the same. I realize I'm asking things of him he can't give me. I need to practice enjoying the things he can give me.

The number one thing he gives me is amazing sex. His cock feels amazing inside me. I live for the pleasure of feeling him bury himself in me.

His cock feels so amazing I find myself coming just from his fucking. It's ridiculous. Usually I'm more reserved, but there's something about having him in me that I lose control. I come. Over and over.

I'm so lucky to have that. And I know it.