Friday, November 25, 2005

The experiment.

I'm experimenting with avoiding porn altogether. Just to see what happens. Without masturbating at all for almost the last week I got to the point where I simply couldn't NOT masturbate. I had to cum. I woke up this morning horny and touched me self a little but could't quite get there. So I gave up and got up to start my day.

The day went by mostly normally. But by the end of it I was desperate to cum. I considered begging husband for the chance to suck his cock just to do SOMETHING sexual but decided I'd end up more pissed off if I did that than if I just got on with my life.

Around that time I couldn't resist taking his finger into my mouth and sucking on it, cock-like for a few seconds before giving him a sly sideways smile and going back to the computer. As bedtime came, I followed him up to the bedroom and once he was in bed pulled the blankets down just above his pubic hair and began running my tongue over that area letting it dart down just below the cover. I smiled as I did it and waited for some kind of reaction. I got none. I didn't bother to touch his cock because it didn't matter if it was hard or soft. He wasn't responding mentally and that's what I crave. He didn't touch me. Nothing.

I kissed him goodnight and headed downstairs. In front of the computer I found myself looking for porn but I managed to control myself and just start masturbating. I ended up talking to MP online and he told me to wait so he could watch me on cam when he got home. I agreed and impatiently kept my body at a dull roar.

By the time he got home, my inner labial lips were turning purple, the rest of my pussy a dark, dark red. I'd taken myself to the very very edge of cumming so many times I almost couldn't stand it. Maybe five minutes later I came. Hard. My entire body was hot and had a light sweaty sheen. Every inch of me was involved in that orgasm. It was fucking awesome.

If giving up porn and it's copious orgasms leads to THAT kind of orgasm... that mind numbing, body humming pleasure... I'm never watching porn again.

I'm thrilled. Absolutely thrilled.

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